Ask Baba Yaga: How Can I End An Affair?

Baba crowns

Transcript after the jump.

Dear Baba Yaga,

I have been having an affair for nearly a year and a half with a man who has a wife and a very young child. I’m essentially married, too; I’ve been with my boyfriend for almost ten years, and I absolutely adore him. Although I experience constant ambivalence towards this man, I continue our affair because the sexual chemistry is otherworldly. Neither of us wants to leave their spouse. I know I should end it because I am damaging innocent people with my selfishness, but I do not want to stop. How can I let this go once and for all?

BABA YAGA:

You think you are Queen & King, with such royal power as to ruin innocents. But you are small, frightened animals hiding in the woods ; yr crowns are larger than yr bodies, they have fallen to the forest floor & you tremble within them. Yr crowns are the falsehoods you tell yrselves, caging you in. Once you see how little you’ve become, you will think not of the innocents but of yrselves, & how you miss the prouder sizes you once were.

Previously: Should I Put Out The Fire In My Belly?

Taisia Kitaiskaia is a poet, writer, and Michener Center for Writers fellow. She’s taking questions on behalf of Baba Yaga at AskBabaYaga@gmail.com.